The Sun

I have a penchant for sunrise. Any pictures or paintings of sunrise will melt me. And Sun is supposedly good for me too. I found this real nice vibrant painting.

15 eye dzi bead

This is the 15-eye dzi bead I bought. It is said to blesses us with heaven's luck. When one's heaven luck is activated, he or she will enjoy long term windfall, all sorts of opportunities and good luck from all directions. This means you will have a smooth, easy and unobstructed ride for your undertakings. This is especially important for those who desire to embark on big projects, competitive undertakings, risky businesses and important endeavours. HOPE SO MAN!!!!!

My friend is changing bra size soon..

Got this email from Veg today ......

Hello Everyone,

Yes, I think I'll be changing my bra size soon.
No, not that I've decided to go for my much needed breast enhancement.

Yes, it's a God-answered prayer.
No, I didn't pray for bigger breast over night.
Yes, God is going to make my breast bigger ..... in preparation for motherhood (: >)

I'm about 8~9 weeks pregnant now. Went for my first Gyne visit yesterday. Baby is growing fine. Its about 28mm now. David and myself were really excited when we took our first look at the baby during the scan yesterday. Oh, I can't explain the feeling. Its like, 'There it is! Oh, look the heart beat ......'

Anyway, didnt feel too good for the past few weeks. Sleepy and tired, and couldn't stand the smell of cooking. So my beloved hubby has been staying late or waking up early to cook/plan for my daily meals. Further, I'm more emotional and cried easily. It must be pretty strenuous on him. He was concern and asked if I wanted to go back to Spore so that there is more help available. But I keep telling him its ok, better days are coming! I'm already feeling better, having adjusted to the hormones changes. I still cant cook, but can otherwise 'function properly'.

Ethan has been a little angel, very helpful and understanding that I'm not in the physical mood to play with him like before. He is excited about the baby too.

Do pray for God's hand on the continual of healthy development of the baby, and His guidance and wisdom for me to be preparing my body for the pregnancy and mothering of Ethan at the same time.

Thank you!
Blessed Mum-to-be

CONGRATS VEG AND DAVID !!!!
So we gonna have a little piggy baby to play with this year!

Good bye, Dr Ong!

Yesterday had a painful sore throat. Went to see my regular GP. So sad to learn that Dr Ong has already retired. In place of him was a handsome young doctor. Somehow I felt a little sad, because the thought of not being able to see Dr Ong again, somehow made me sad. He always has a kind concerned word for me whenever I am sick. And he is the only doctor who knows I have that many drug allergies. Any mis-prescription will end up with me having two panda swollen red eyes that cannot open. I remember the numerous times Dr Ong had to give me an immediate jab to prevent my eyes from ballooning.

He was part of my childhood, because he is my neighbourhood doctor. I have been seeing them eversince I was a kid. Thats why somehow I feel sad. Anyway, take care, Dr Ong!

Bean there, done that!

It was a "constructive" weekend, meaning I did other stuff, apart from lazing at home. Friday night went to the 24-hour HK cafe with my lazy rich friend for dinner again. Although the food was so-so, but we like to try the numerous items in the menu. This time we tried the fried lotus roots, the seafood yee mee, the corn soup, the soft tofu dish and for dessert, almond dumpling soup. Nice end to the week, but it ended with a slight stomach upset when I got home. Nothing wrong with the food, just that my tummy has been having lots of gas recently.

Saturday noon went to meet an online buyer. The bugger turned out to be a 13-year-old malay boy who made me wait for more than half an hour for him. I was half expecting a no-show. But he came, so fine. Took the train to Bugis to meet my lazy rich friend again. We wanted to check out dzi beads. Ended buying the 15-eye dzi bead, heh! Went for lunch at the vegetarian restaurant I frequented, ordered the mock mee goreng, the mock wu xiang, the mock popiah, mock Japanese tempura set, mock herbal soup. I like this place because it sells everything under the sky. You want to try any dish, you name it, they will definitely have... the mock version. Vegetarian lah. And we followed by having gui lin gao in another shop. This time, no mock lah.

My lazy rich friend bought a Tibetan singing bowl, some incense sticks all in the name of space cleansing. I think fengshui sellers need to thank Lillian Too for boosting the popularity of fengshui and buddhist items worldwide. For eg, singing bowls, dzi beads, buddha statues and mantras, crystals and precious stones, fengshui stuff like windchimes, qilin, mandalas, and many others.

Right till evening, went for my Saturday night puja, and it was Medicine Buddha puja this week. After prayers, went with sis family to the Old Airport Road Market for dinner. Had the herbal chicken and hokkien prawn mee. It was a hot day and evening. When I went home again my stomach was calling. Then it began to rain very heavily with a little wind even. It was a very auspicious sign. I heard from a senior Geshe in the center that whenever there was a heavy downpour after a puja, it means the buddhas are listening. And Saturday's heavy rain was unexpected, right after a very hot day.

Sunday morning brought Raegan and Raee to watch Mr Bean's Holiday whom they love. I watch for the sake of bringing them to watch. That's all. Bought them both a book each, Winx and Pokemon. In the afternoon, my family went to the center again. I have made a personal appointment to receive blessings from His Holiness 101st Gaden Tripa Rinpoche. It has been 2 years since I last met him. I remember when I first saw him, I was almost in tears, moved by him. This time round, he blessed me, my mom and my sis and family. He looked well and I look forward to his teachings in the coming weeks.

Had a simple dinner on Sunday night with Mom. Came home, again went to the toilet a few times. My upset stomach again. I take it as a sign of internal cleansing lor.

Have Junk, Must Sell!

Recently been doing some sales of my unwanted stuff online. Didn't know that my junk can actually fetch me some coffee money, some taxi money, some makan money, and most importantly, rid my unwanted rubbish at home!!!

After the CNY while doing springcleaning, found that I have so many unwanted items in my posssession that I no longer need. Even those that were precious items to me last time, seemed to have lost their sentimental value to me, meaning I don't feel anything about them anymore. So since I feel absolutely zilch over them, why not sell them online? Make someone else happy.

So far I have sold a few Lillian Too books, an OSIM massager, an electronic facial washer, a tripod stand, a comics book, and another book "Eat Right For Your Type" etc etc.... I have about 400 CDs to sell, some VCDs, a bed, many books ranging from fengshui, astrology, buddhism, self-help, non-fiction, autobiographies and many others which I am still unaware of.... and also a few mobile phones to sell, some precious stones.... I think I have many many items which I have not found, hiding in all corners of my house, I am sure there will be many which I can sell. Just give me some time, to dig them out, take photo of the items, and then I will post them up!

Special dream

Few nights ago I had a dream. I was inside this huge convention building with many exhibition halls and conference rooms throughout various floors. There were many people walking around. Even the rooms were fully filled.

I entered one room. There were a number of women there, mostly were in their 30s to 50s, chatting and seemed to be preparing for some session. I saw my Aunt Amanda there. As I approached her, she was holding in her hands some colourful cloth in red, blue, green, white and yellow, all rolled up. There were a few women there who were holding the colourful cloth too. I think they were wondering what to do with the cloth. As I took a closer look, I suddenly realised that they were Tibetan prayer flags! The five colours have many meanings in Tibetan Buddhism. They can represent the five directions, the five physical elements, the five wisdoms, the five meditation Buddhas, the five mental attributes, or the five realms of existence with blue sky, white cloud, red fire, green water, and yellow earth.

I showed the women how the prayer flags were to be hanged high up in the ceiling. Everyone started to hang up the flags and the entire room transformed eventually into wonderful displays of prayers and colours. Stringing Buddhist Prayer Flags is thought to be beneficial for all beings in the immediate area, and to benefit the karma of the individual who hangs the flags. I felt so happy seeing that, and especially since Aunt Amanda is in real life recuperating from cancer.

Then as I proceeded to roam the other rooms, walking along the aisles and walkways, I came across a group of lamas (Tibetan monks) sitting and standing around a huge table. On the table were many small dharma pills, each packed in tiny red and yellow cloth. I was amazed at the sight of the mountain of the dharma pills stacked up high. According to Guru Padmasambhava, whoever consumes the properly prepared dharma pills will be blessed both physically and spiritually. These pills can purify one's negative karmic forces and arouse the mind towards the Dharma. They can prevent epidemic disease, poison, illness etc. and remove all kind of obstacles such as curses and black magic.

Just as I continued my way, my colleague Mr J, came up to me from behind, and quickly shoved into my palm 3 pieces of the dharma pills I just saw. I was surprised yet pleased. Then we proceeded to a meeting supposedly a Microsoft event in another room. The rest of the dream is non-descript.

I am not sure of the meaning of this dream but the mere sightings of the prayer flags, the lamas, and the dharma pills, already made me as happy as a lark!

我祈祷只愿你听得到

Pearlyn recommended this song by this singer 刘畊宏 the song is <情画>. I don't know who is he but the song is nice.

画上的油彩

早已被风干

该怎么来完成我不明白

记忆的案

放在旧货摊

我担心会有谁懂的疼爱

雪白的礼服

挂在那等待

淡淡的灰朦有一丝悲哀

教堂门已开

而你却不在

玫瑰步道看不到末端

我孤单我不安

思绪被封住了口

黑夜却还是不罢手

强颜欢笑背后在暗淡中摸索

我祈祷只愿你听得到

从分开到现在

我过的我在习惯

伤痛却依然在扩散

时间不听唤

为回忆上了锁

这段情我已放不开

这段情我放不开

Velly humor

"People of humor are always in some degree people of genius. "
-- Samuel Taylor Coleridge, British Poet and Philosopher

5 weird things about me

1. I never try on clothes in the shops. If something fits me, I will normally just buy. I know my size and so long I like the piece enough, I will just pay up, without trying. The reason is because we don't know whether the previous person who tried the piece earlier is dripping in sweat or not! Worse, maybe got BO some more.

2. If I like a person, I will go all the way out to be a caring friend. But at the same time, I will turn 360 degree around if I know the person does not appreciate me in the same light. And when I say I change totally, I mean I really changed my behaviour towards the person. TOTALLY. In the sense I may ignore the person totally, sometimes for good. What to do, cancerians are moody....

3. I always change handphones often whenever I tire of the current one. I am a true-blue gadget freak. And whenever I change handphones, it's normally a newly-released model. Hence there may not be any accessories for that model in the market yet. But I will still go all out in the first few weeks just to enquire about accessories. For example, I am still searching almost everyday for the crystal case for my E65, which is not in the stores yet! Till one shop assistant recognised me and promised to call me once the case is here! Hence my handphones normally are dripped with many accessories. Heh..

4. I need my baby powder every time after shower. Without the powder, I will feel so sticky and hot and bothered before bed time. And I will end up bathing again! So powder better don't become extinct.

5. Whenever I feel down in luck or when I have gone for some happy occasions like weddings, or baby first month celebration or sad occasions like funerals, I will normally buy lots of lime. I will cut up 3 limes into halves and squeeze them into a pail of water, and I will rub the lime and juice all over my body. I will do that for consecutively 3 days. This is a secret method imparted by my master, in order to rid myself of the bad energy that is stuck in my body. When your body qi is stuck, how can you have good luck? In that sense, I am superstitious.

The Heavenly King

Now then I know my buddy Veggie is reading my blog (wave at Veg)! So she isn't that busy and forgetful! Hee!

Heavenly King Jacky Cheung is coming in July for a concert. After all the hooha, I think all my 3 buddies Veggie Joan Jess are gonna be going but we are all gonna sit in different seats and different days. Anyway I am not a fan. But at least he can sing. Hehe!

Outside impossible

Seeking happiness outside ourselves
is like waiting for sunshine in a cave facing north. - Tibetan Buddhist Saying

PS. I took a shot of this mid noon sun with my mobile, while I was sitting in a car looking upwards towards the glaring hot afternoon sun, just quietly creeping out from behind the clouds. Beautiful, isn't it?

Red hot babe

I got myself a new toy on Saturday - the latest Nokia E65. I chose the red hot sexy version. Because I like red. Every now and then, I pamper myself with new toys. With handphones, I will normally do a bit of research before buying. I am a tad fussy about handphones. And I can be rather fickle with new models. (Almost) all features must be there, must be slim, must be nice looking, must be WIFI, must be 3G, must be able to take good pixs, display must be 16 million colours, Symbian OS, MP3, memory card up to 2GB, etc.. etc.. I am hard to please, I know (as far as hot mobiles are concerned..)

&@*#W$(#%&%)^#^%#!!!

I urgently needed to put my thoughts into writing, to trash out all my inner thoughts, but i couldn't transcribe those damn feelings and emotions and moods of mine at all. For the first time, I am lost for words here ! I am stuck with my mixed emotions, lost in the world of the unknown ##^$#^%8(#%>

What a new year ...

This Chinese New Year is possibly the year which I will never forget. Because so many things happened during these few weeks. So many people affected... people falling sick.... and the dearly departed...

Just a week before CNY, my grandaunt (Lao Yee)'s granddaughter who was 21, passed away. She had a heart problem and collapsed suddenly. She was such a pretty young girl who was just finishing University.

My niece's babysitter who is close to us, told us during the 8th day of CNY that her younger brother has died of cancer of the brain. He has been suffering for the past 2 years. He was 41.

Two days ago, on the 11th day of CNY, my another grandaunt's daughter (my mom's cousin) also passed away after 2 years of suffering from breast cancer. She was 50.

My Aunt Amanda is recuperating at home now from her operation, cancer of the uterus. Hope that she is ok. My sis' right eye was suddenly swollen on the 1st day of CNY, she ended had to go to hospital to see a doctor because most clinics were closed. And just 2 weeks ago, my niece and nephew had dengue fever, and had to be hospitalised.

With all these happening around me, I cant help but feel kinda melancholic depressed, albeit its CNY, and because its CNY.