Wednesday, 31 December 2008

Happy New Year!

I do hope my 2009 will be FREE OF dark patches, dark periods, no men in black (meaning no unscrupulous/cunning/petty people or backstabbers), no Monday blues and no Black Fridays.

My wish for 2009 ....... remain in good health, non-existent dark circles and wrinkles (ahem), earn loads of extra bucks, have loving relationships, start my own business, and maybe to fly the coop for a year or two.

Happy New Year, everyone!

Recalling resolutions


I looked back on my 2008 resolutions and let's see how well I fare.....

1. Find more time to practise Dharma & meditate.
We can never practise enough Dharma no matter how much we did try. I attended pujas and teachings but I still think it was not enough. I hope to do more good deeds. Results: Failed miserably

2. Let go of things and people who have upset me, to let them all go.
Sadly, humans are still attached to attachments, so do I find it hard to let go of some things. But the experiences have given me a different perspective in life and I have learnt my lessons well. Result: Failed

3. Find worthy causes & people for my magnanimous love and concern.
Yes I still love the people I do, and I have helped a bunch of people lead better lives away from their homeland. Result: Passed

4. Improve my financial situation.
In Singapore, it is impossible to be free of debts eg. house, car, indulgences, insurance, children, education etc..). With blessings I have prevented financial predicament from getting worse and in the process of improving, one day at a time, folks. Result: Passed borderline

5. Repay all the benefactors I am indebted to, in all areas.
Payback time always come a knocking, whether financially or non-financially. I can only try to lighten my "debts" but we can never really repay those we are indebted to, this life or previous lives, especially karmic debts. I just have to keep trying. Result: Passed - scraped through

6. Find a new job.
Yes I did! May 2009 be a year full of opportunities. Contrary to economic sentiments, I think I can and have always thrive during bad times. Result: Passed

7. Renovate my ideal home.
Yes I did! Renovated, moved and happy. My new home is full of peace and calm. Even my guests are happy. Result: Passed with flying colours

8. Hang out with my buddies more often.
We had quite a few get-together except these last 2 months where I would like to lie low. Those close friends will always remain close friends, and those who have drifted, can only say "hope we meet again". Result: Passed borderline

9. Go on a long holiday trip to a country I have never been to.

Been to Dubai for 10 days, a place I have never been to, thanks to Rich Friend. Also been to few short trips to Malaysia. So I am blessed. Result: Passed with flying colours

10. Go to bed latest by midnight to have a good 8 hours of beauty sleep.
Yes I do sleep around midnight and I did managed plenty of beauty sleep. I had to if I do not want wrinkles. Result: Passed with flying colours

11. Find the love of my life and soulmate.
You can always find someone to confide in and whom can be your soul mate, but to find someone worthy to be with you your whole life, you need that chemistry and destiny. Result: Failed miserably

8/11 means 72% so I think I did not bad. Someone said I am blessed and have a good life. I hope so too.

Tuesday, 30 December 2008

Have beens

End of the year tomorrow. 2008 has been a year of change for me. Let me recall the changes ....

1. I changed house
2. I changed everything in the house except my parents
3. I changed job and bosses
4. I changed office locations (twice)
5. I changed my house telephone number
6. I changed my mobile number
7. I changed mobile phones (twice)
8. I changed laptops
9. I changed wallets
10. I changed from a non-specs person to a specs person
11. I changed from a non-cook to an amatuer cook
12. I changed by cutting down on buying clothes by 70%
13. I changed my plan to plan
14. I changed from being non fussy to a little fussy with food
15. I changed holiday destination from Nepal to Dubai
16. I changed my opinion of the meaning of "cunning hooligans"
17. I changed from greatly indebted to being indebted
18. I changed in my judgement of character
19. I changed moods pretty often
20. I changed my loving and doting ways

21. I changed by becoming even more steadfast and loyal
22. I changed from being misunderstood to being grossly misunderstood.

I remained unchanged in being a law-abiding citizen, in my faith in the Triple Gems, in my beliefs, in my dreams, in my hair style, and in my love for those I love.

Good bye 2008, and don't come back to haunt me. Boo.

I can only pray that 2009 will be a year of better changes.

Far from reality

Don't be mistaken. These are not skies before rainfall. These are actually taken in broad daylight, when the sun is shining brightly during noon time. The angles shot (against the sunlight) made them looked dark only. Normally I do not go cloud chasing consciencely, but when I see them, I just clicked.

Just like the saying goes: "Your perception of the world around you is not necessarily the same as what is actually occurring".

For example when we see a dark sky, we say it is going to rain. But is being dark means that it is going to rain? Did we notice the sun that is hiding behind the clouds? Did we know the sun is the one which made what we see "different"? Is it because the sun itself is too bright that those around it looked dim and dark? If the sun is not present, do we see blue skies or dark skies? If the angles were shot differently, would we have assume it is going to rain? If my angles were not directed at the sun, the pictures would look bright and cheery with blues skies smiling. Whether direct or indirect angles, is the sun less brighter than it is ? If the sun is not there when the shot is taken, the sky may be even darker or even brighter?

In other words, what we see around us is what we call "conventional truths" but if we can cultivate our mind, we will be able to see the true nature of all things and thus be enlightened.

The top and bottom of it


I found it so amazing watching niece and nephew eat ice cream, especially when it was ice cream that was melting fast. They love ice cream. And when they have the chance, they devour and enjoy their ice cream like no tomorrow.

With melting ice cream in cone, they licked, they slurped, they sucked, and wiped away the drips ferociously. They licked on top, sucked below, and chewed and swallowed. They repeated these actions a few times, dirtying the floor, dirtying their clothes, made a mess around their mouths, and finally it finished. Then they sat back to relax. Ahem.

Nowadays they tell their mommy, "Hokkaido ice cream" instead of "McDonalds ice cream".

Dino


29 Dec was my cousin, Deane's 21st birthday. Time flies. It has been 21 years already. I remember when he was still a baby, Dino (his pet name) was the most obedient among all my little cousins and very easy to take care of him. He was not rough as a small boy, he was the friendly toddler who was always smiling. I loved to carry him around because he was as light as a feather compared to my hefty cousins. When he was about 3 years old, he stayed with me for about 2 nights, when his mother has to deliver his little sister. He was such an easy child with no fuss, no temper, no mood swings. He just smiled at you.

Now 21 years later, Dino has grown to be a cool, quiet dude. A little introverted, he is really a shy young man of few words.

For his birthday bash, sis, mom and I bought him a box of pressies; a black messenger bag, a black-grey knit hat, and a black leather belt from Zara, as well as a 4-individual ear-studs. Hope he likes his pressies. And hope he enjoys his new adulthood. Happy Birthday, Dino!

Monday, 29 December 2008

“There's one sad truth in life I've found while journeying east and west. The only folks we really wound are those we love the best. We flatter those we scarcely know, we please the fleeting guest, but deal full many a thoughtless blow to those who love us best.”

- Ella Wheeler Wilcox

Sunday, 28 December 2008

Have it your way


I saw this advertisement poster in a Burger King outlet and I jotted it down.

"You have the right to have what you want, exactly when you want it. Because on the menu of life, you are "Today's Special". And tomorrow's. And the day after that. And well, you get the drift. Yes, that's right. We may be the King, but you, my friend, are the almighty ruler."
Same analogy to us. Yes, we should always remind ourselves that in any circumstances, we are worthy and deserve all that life has to bring, and we have the right to fight for our own dreams. Do not be despondent or discouraged at any time along the way. Yes, my friend, always remember.... you are "today's special".... everyday.

The canteen


A friend treated me (to thank me for my help) for brunch at the canteen in Orchard. I mean, THE CANTEEN. This canteen is no canteen, and its food are not canteen prices. They serve local dishes like Laksa, Mee Pok, XO Lou ShiFun, Fried Rice and desserts like Cheng Tng etc... and everything there does NOT shout "canteen".

I ordered their so-called specialty which is the Crab Mee Pok Dry. The Mee Pok was garnished with soft shell crab and few pieces of crab meat, towgay (beansprouts) and the chilli and sauce. The taste was ok I guess ( I mean anything with crab meat will make the dish taste sweeter) and I finished my mee pok in a jiffy.

The down side of this place is, the food portion tend to be small and so may not fill your stomach unless you order more stuff and the prices are too high. For this small portion, it costs S$ 16.90 (or maybe anything with crab in it is pricey?). My main grouse is, it did not even come with a small bowl of soup!

The up side of this canteen is, the service is impeccable. The waiters all speak English fluently, and were very attentive to your every need. They take orders fast, serve food promptly and prepare the bill promptly too. They also remember their regulars by names. And they even ask you if you need a glass of cold water even before taking our order.

The next impressive thing is, the serviettes they used are of very good quality. It was very very thick, macam almost like cloth. And this is impressive because for a small cafe that pays attention to these small details (which normally only high-end restaurants do), is quite commendable.

Food-wise, I would not pay $16.90 for a small bowl of Mee Pok. I rather have my $4 Tai Wah Mee Pok in Crawford Lane anytime. Reminded me of the famous and very expensive Hainanese Chicken Rice in Chatterbox - Mandarin Hotel. But that's Chatterbox, not Canteen.

The loo

Was in this beautiful toilet at a shopping mall. It's a mock up of Holland's fields, complete with blue skies, green fields, windmills, wooden clogs, tulips and sunflowers! So colourful and inspiring. We need toilets like this so that we can go about doing our business happily. Right? So I could'nt help but snapped a pix or two, and did "a Karen Cheng"!

省钱王!!!


Recently I bought this T-shirt from some export shop for only S$ 3. WOW, THREE SINGAPORE DOLLARS! 省钱王!!!

It was real cheap and some American brand. The best thing is, the quality of the material is very very good. Very soft and comfy. Its washed-out design I also like (this is not second-hand T-shirt hor). And it's the best to wear to sleep in. Heh. Normally I like to wear big baggy Tees to sleep. Sometimes even the most branded of branded pyjamas or T-shirts may not be that nice to wear as this!

I better tell Rich Friend, so that she can buy my S$ 3 Tees for Muffy to sleep on. Muffy (her pet dog) sleeps on an extra soft towel on her bed, because he just refuses to sleep if his blanket is coarser than pure cotton. So, his special soft towel costs about $17! :O

Are you prepared?


I have posted this story before, thought I re-post this again, a reminder for us not to take things for granted.

Do you know the story of the true dragon? In ancient China, there was a person who liked dragons very much. He talked about dragons to his friends, and he painted dragons, and he bought various kinds of dragon sculptures.

Then a dragon said to himself, “If a real dragon like me visited him, he would be very happy.” One day the real dragon sneaked into his room. The man didn't know what to do! Whaaaah! He could not run away. He could not even stand up. Whaaaah!

For a long, long time we have been like him. That should not be our attitude. We should not be just a fan of dragons; we should always be the dragon himself. Then we will not be afraid of any dragon.

All the fascination with and worshipping of the Buddhas is ultimately pointless if it does not in the least inspires us to become Buddhas. Mindfulness of the Buddha is to bring us closer to the Buddhas, not to merely keep them at a “respectful” distance. What will you do when your favourite Buddha suddenly visits you?

- adapted from Moonpointer

Clean profit

Yesterday I made $500 selling off one of my handphones and it was 100% profit. Yes I have a few handphones and normally I will sell them off after a few months while the value of the model is still high. The advantages of changing handphones frequently? (1) You get to play and try out different high-end models with latest features (2) The resale value of a new model is still high for at least 6 months since they were launched (3) As I normally have some extra accessories, these are added advantage in my sales. (4) You can make extra cash. (5) No need to rely on trade-ins as they pay peanuts.

Any sponsors want me to try out their handphones and review?

I am now trying to sell one old model which was my Mom's phone. I gave her another of my newer handphones.

Saturday, 27 December 2008

Hickory Dickory Clock


This was one of my best buys in Dubai - yes, a round clock. Saw this clock in one of the upmarket shopping mall, and immediately bought it. I lugged back this clock which was very heavy, and I like the antique washed-out look - the sepia tone clock face. It even has delicate flowery designs around the sides and the borders look like ivory marble. And it costs just S$ 30. For this amount, we would have just found a very simple clock in Singapore. And since my parents have been nagging about the silver clock that I bought for the living room which they did not like, so I decided to buy this antique clock instead. If I had stayed in that shop longer, I think I would have bought a lot more items back to sell. It was really value for money and something unique.

Hickory Dickory Dock,
The mouse ran up the clock.
The clock struck one,
The mouse ran down!
Hickory Dickory Dock.

Furry friends


These are my niece's soft toys, which keep her company when she sleeps. All these soft toys were bought by me during different times, all hand-picked and chosen by niece herself. A recent addition was Ginger the Camel. I do not think they are a lot compared to other kids, as her mommy does not like her to buy and keep soft toys.

But girls will be girls. It is a stage of life which they love their furry friends, talk to them, and play with them, sleep with them and these furry creatures are often their companion. We cannot deny the kid's innocent preference and attachment, as childhood is only once in a lifetime. Some adults still has not outgrow soft toys too.

Om mani padme hum!


I found this beautiful pix of the Four-Armed Guan Yin, or Avalokiteshvara. Avalokiteshvara (in Sanskrit means "Lord who looks down") is a Bodhisattva who embodies the Compassion of all Buddhas. Avalokiteshvara is often depicted in a female form known as Guan Yin. In Tibetan, Avalokiteshvara is known as Chenrezig.

I have an acute affinity with the Four-Armed Avalokiteshvara. Throughout many trials, I found that Avalokiteshvara is often by my side, either manifesting in my dreams or in other coincidental incidents.

In Tibetan Buddhism, Chenrezig is renowned as the embodiment of the compassion of all the Buddhas, the Bodhisattva of Compassion. He is the earthly manifestation of Buddha Amitabha 南無阿彌陀佛. He guards this world in the interval between the historical Shakyamuni Buddha, and the next Future Buddha - Maitreya.

Chenrezig made a vow that he would not rest until he had liberated all sentient beings in all the realms of suffering. After working diligently at this task for a very long time, he looked out and realized the immense number of sentient beings yet to be saved. Seeing this, he became despondent and his head split into thousands of pieces. Amitabha Buddha put the pieces back together as a body with very many arms and many heads, so that Chenrezig could work with myriad beings all at the same time. Sometimes Chenrezig is visualized with eleven heads, and a thousand arms fanned out around him. The Dalai Lamas and Karmapas, who are considered living Buddhas, are emanations of Chenrezig.

Whenever we are compassionate, or feel love for anyone, or for an animal or some part of the natural world, we experience a taste of our own natural connection with Chenrezig. Although we may not be as consistently compassionate as some of the great meditation masters, it is believed that we all share, in our basic nature, unconditional compassion and wisdom that is no different from what we see in Chenrezig and in these lamas.

We might have trouble believing that we are no different than Chenrezig - but learning about the nature of compassion, and learning about Chenrezig, repeating his mantra Om Mani Padme Hum and imagining that we would like to be like Chenrezig, pretending that we really are just like Chenrezig, we actually can become aware of increasing compassion in our lives, and ultimately, awaken as completely wise and compassionate buddhas.

Hair fuss


My nephew is quite a fussy boy. For food, he would not touch vegetables (which is common for kids) and even fruits (he only takes apples and dark grapes). For clothes, he must feel comfy in his pants, otherwise no matter how nice a pair of pants is, he would never wear it, ever. His mom was exasperated as there were many pairs of pants which went to cold storage because the boy gives the excuses - "it's too tight", "it's not nice", "it's too long", "it's too thick" etc... although it may be none of the above.

Next, for hair, he would not let any barber cut his hair. He lets only one hairdresser cut his hair since he was like 2 years old. Other indian or malay barber or anyone could not even hope to touch his hair, because he will wail (when he was a toddler) and complain (when he was 2-3 years old) or go on strike if anyone except Aunty May touches his hair. She is the only neighbourhood lady hairdresser whom he likes, no one else. With the lady boss' instructions, he would not even dare to move or try to be funny. He would always smile to her sweetly and timidly let her cut his hair. This is vastly different behaviour than his norm, believe me. I am so amazed only this lady boss can control him. Haha.

Friday, 26 December 2008

Pork knuckles you should not try

To avoid the crowd, I was lunching with a friend at a Bugis Village cafe. I thought I had try something different instead of rice dish sets. So I ordered a mushroom soup and half slab of Roasted Pork Knuckles. The choice was horrendous.

While I waited, I noticed there was hardly any diners in the cafe. An old man was sipping coffee. A couple of guys were about to leave, and another lady was finishing her food. The lady called for the bill and when the bill came, she told the waitress, "the food is terrible". I saw there was quite a lot of her food left.

My mushroom soup was normal, and passable with a few slices of mushroom in addition to the chopped mushrooms, although the croutons did not tasted right. Then my Pork Knuckles came. Either the knife given was not sharp enough or the roasted piece of meat was so hard I could not sliced it. It took alot of effort to cut it. The roasted skin should be crispy and fragrant, but it was not - it was pretty "chewy" (meaning it took a lot of effort to cut and chew). The fatty part after the skin normally should melt in your mouth. But this just tasted like hard-to-chew jelly, or a very hard Agar Agar. The taste was quite hard to stomach. I thought the final lean meat part should at least be edible. It was hard to chew again, and it tasted barely cooked with no fragrant taste at all. Not even a burnt taste. I gave up after managing a quarter of the dish. Normally no matter how bad the food, if it was still edible, I would finish it. But unfortunately today, everything went wrong with that dish. At that moment, I had rather eat Char Siew/Siew Yoke Rice which costs only $3.00.

To me, pork knuckles should be very crispy on the outside, with juicy fats oozing out and melts in your mouth and then with the fragrant crunchy meat inside, to make this dish complete. But in that cafe, this dish barely made it on all counts. Un-delectable. Now I know why the cafe was so empty during lunch hour. I think they would not survive another 3 months, eventhough it was such a hot and busy location. A pity. Luckily it was not that expensive, otherwise I would have blew my top.

Instead, the Pontian Noodles I tried at Marine Parade yesterday, was so much more fun. I did not know there is this chain of outlets in hawker centres selling black sauce wanton noodles (aka Malaysia style). It was black sauce alright instead of our ketchupy reddish local wanton mee. The char siew (roasted meat) was crunchy and the fried wanton good. The steamed wanton went into the soup which was better than the fried ones. I ordered an extra portion of fried wanton to share, with mayonnaise and chilli sauce. Such a simple fulfilling meal.

Although its real counterpart in Malaysia should taste better, this stall in Marine Parade is better than nothing - black sauce noodles. I remember the coffeeshop next to Federal Hotel in KL selling this wanton mee. It was good and their noodles pretty QQ.

For 2009....

There comes a point in your life when you realize
who matters,
who never did,
who won't anymore...
and who always will.

So, don't worry about people from your past,
there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.
Give a heart to everyone you don't want to lose in 2009.

Be kinder than necessary because everyone you meet
is fighting some kind of battle.

Thursday, 25 December 2008

Are we feeling the same?

I realised that not everyone is out to party this Christmas. Quite a few bloggers term this a "lonely Christmas", some friends spent Christmas at home sleeping, some friends were online in MSN on Eve and Christmas as well, some friends had a quiet time with family or tone-down celebrations with close friends... etc.. etc.. etc... So I was not alone this Christmas, for most people I know had a quiet Christmas.

I had a quiet dinner at home on Christmas Eve with family and an aunt. Had spagetti and pizza, plus a very typical Chinese dish - braised fatty pork legs. BTW the fatty pork legs gravy mixed so well with the spagetti - fusion mix of Western & Asian food. Simple fare. For desserts, we had a log cake, the blueberry cheesecake tarts, eclairs, chips, nuts and chocolate, and loads of red wine and coffee/tea. I was a little red from the red wine, plus partially from sun-burnt. Hee.

Bought gifts for my one and only niece and nephew. To me, no matter how bad the situation is, or no matter how unspoilt you want your children to be, Christmas is not Christmas without presents for kids. To me and my sis, our Christmases from childhood were always filled with excitement and happiness. Happy because we received loads of presents from the elders and excited because we had new toys or clothes - only time of the year we received presents. So, I would never deprive my niece and nephew of gifts, even if the party was cancelled.

Bought my niece a nice sweet floral dress and her very first 2 pairs of ear rings (one pair is pink flowers and the other is a pair of butterflies). Just timely as Chinese New Year is next month. Bought my nephew a Bakugan Tshirt, and Bakugan mini toys. This is the latest fad for boys. Everything Bakugan. *roll eyes*

Hope your Christmas was fun.

P.S. The kids love the pressies. The vain little girl loved her shiny ear rings and the boy was grinning at his Bakugan. These happy, innocent and appreciative expressions are what made me happy. No matter how small or big a pressie, no matter how cheap or expensive a pressie, the most important thing is, it is being appreciated by the recipient.

Last christmas

I remember last Christmas Eve well. Had the usual office party, exchanged gifts and the teddy bear contest. I remember a colleague helped me make a teddy bear costume, in case I could not have produce anything the last minute, as I was drinking the night before with Christmas gathering and having a slight headache. I remember on Christmas Eve where I went after the office party.

Today is my blog's 4th birthday. My blog was born on Christmas Day in 2004.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LIFE OF LOPSIDED 8 !!!!!!!

This is another of my favourite Christmas song, "Last Christmas".

“A friend is one that knows you as you are,
understands where you have been,
accepts what you have become,
and still,
gently allows you to grow.”

Wednesday, 24 December 2008

Berry Cheesemas


My mom was so blur. She only realised this morning that today was Christmas Eve. She had thought Eve would be tomorrow instead. So she had to spend the afternoon rushing to finish baking these.

These are blueberry cheesecake tarts which my mom made this year for Christmas. Instead of baking cheesecake, she made them into tarts so that it's easier to eat. The taste of the pastry cups she made was very nice (anything that taste like butter cookies I have absolutely no problem with), and then she added in the cheesecake mix and a splash of blueberry. Then they were oven baked. This is a new creation from my mom this year.

These tarts should be called Berry Cheesemas. :)

So this is Christmas

This is one of my favourite Christmas songs and hearing it always reminds me that Christmas is here and made me think of the past Christmases as well, especially those many many years ago.

We may not be having the wars of the old times, but the economy is fighting a war of its own right now, and everyone is fighting a different "war" of their own. May the christmas spirit cheers us all.

To everyone I love, merry christmas.

So this is christmas
And what have you done
Another year over
And a new one just begun
And so this is christmas
I hope you have fun
The near and the dear ones
The old and the young a very merry christmas
And a happy new year
Let's hope it's a good one
Without any fear and so this is christmas

Tuesday, 23 December 2008

Wild wild wet and wet

Went to the Wild Wild Wet adventure. Got myself sun-burnt but it was fun. I have not looked so tanned for a long time.

We sat on the exciting Ular-Lah which was a huge raft slithering down the meandering ride and braving through the rapid waters in different angles. Plus screams in different decibels could be heard all the way!

Then we got on to the Shiok River, which was pretty shiok I must say. It was 335 metres long around the park, meandering through with a float, the waters will carry one away and we could just watch as the world drifted by...

Next it was the SkyRider. It was a monorail that meanders through the park with an aerial view of the pools and rides 5 metres below. You needed to cycled on the track on a two-person carriage.

Another pretty fun ride was in the Tsunami pool. Tsunami combined the best of swimming pools and the sea to give you the feeling of the surf under controlled conditions. I felt the choppy currents, soaking up the waves as we floated along. The currents might wash you back to shore or push you further out to "sea".

And there was also a Foam Pool opened at different timings, which attracted most kids. You just had to stand there and let the jet shoot out the foamy stuff all over your body.

My favourite at the end of the day got to be the Jacuzzi. It was an open small pool where fluid jets rub your tired muscles plus a bubbly massage that soothes your aches. I like sitting under the man-made waterfall and had the waters pound down hard on my shoulders, it was stronger than a massage from a human!

The only ride we did not try was the Slide Up, which was supposedly plunging down a four-storey ramp, accelerating until you hit the deck and skimming across to soar on the opposite side.... a few times. I do not think my heart could take that. Haha!

Sunday, 21 December 2008

Beauty of compassion


Today is the Winter Solstice, also 冬至 "Dong Zhi" in chinese, when sunshine is weakest and daylight shortest. After today, there will be days with longer daylight hours and therefore an increase in positive energy flowing in. As advised, it is a good day for prayers, especially to White Tara.

White Tara is the goddess of compassion and action. She is the female aspect of Avalokitesvara (Chenrezig) (Guanyin). The myth of the White Tara began when she showed up as the tear of Avalokiteshvara, also known as Chenrezig, whom the Dalai Lama is a reincarnation of. She appeared when Avalokiteshvara, the Buddha of all Buddhas, moved into a state of compassion... when his mind and his heart met in wisdom... and the suffering he saw because the the lack of this balance, made him cry. Then he could see Her... or it is said she appeared. For that is who she is, the compassion expressed in that tear. It could be said the tear cleared the eye to see her. She is the expression of compassion.

White Tara is also associated with longevity. White Tara counteracts illness and thereby helps to bring about a long life. She embodies the motivation that is compassion and is said to be as white and radiant as the moon. Her love heals at the source of disease, bringing health, strength, longevity and beauty, shining through a world off balance and suffering.

May all beings learn to live in paradise.
Om tare tuttare ture mama ayuh punya jnana pustim kuru soha!

Un(drama) christmas


For the first time in more than 2 decades, my extended family of about 30 aunties, uncles and cousins would not be having a Christmas party this year. Although most of us are not Christians, but Christmas time is normally a family get-together time on Christmas Eve. Usually we would take turns holding the parties in different households. This year, we decided to skip the party.

Maybe it's because everyone is busy, maybe it's because everyone is tired, maybe it's because everyone is scared of the hassle of buying tons of presents, maybe it's because the Chinese New Year is round the corner, maybe it's because of the recession. And maybe there is more than these that meet the eye. I don't know.

For me, it was kind of a relief we are forgoing this gathering, because (1)not in the mood to buy tons of presents (2)tired of the games, (3)I have more urgent mission on hand, (4)I like quiet tone-down gatherings. My idea of having a nice time is popping champagne or sipping red wine with loved ones enjoying some music and exchanging meaningful gifts. Or go on a vacation somewhere. I do not like noisy parties (either dress up formal little-black-dress parties or dress down bikini-foam parties at the beach) where I have to exchange superficial small talk and niceties with acquaintances or strangers. I know some people love to party like this or pretend to love such parties but sorry, they are not my cup of tea.

And for that matter, to make this a very un(drama) Christmas, there will also be no office party or small party with buddies this year. See, as I mentioned before, this year is a "year of change" or the year of the "unconventional". ;>

I will still buy presents for the kids though... and I have bought a few gifts for few close ones, no matter what we all would be doing this Christmas.
Amen.

Saturday, 20 December 2008

A happy journey


By Alfred D. Souza.

He said, "For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, or a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life."

This perspective has helped me to see that there is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have and treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time with...and remember that time waits for no one.

Happiness is a journey, not a destination.

Sweet 16 pineapples


Nowadays, I have a habit of buying pineapple to place on my huge dining table, together with other artificial fruits like apples and oranges. I normally buy the Sweet 16 Pineapple which is very very sweet. I will leave one or two pineapples for a few days, before eating them. Then I will get another one. Hence there is always pineapple in the house. I feel having fruits especially pineapples on dining table signify abundance - may we have abundance of food on our table all the time. And this, I learnt, is good fengshui
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Friday, 19 December 2008

Special Advice from H.E. Garchen Rinpoche


Lobsang Garden 洛桑园 has posted a special advice from His Eminence Garchen Rinpoche on Long Life Practice on Dec 22 .

Rinpoche requests the worldwide sangha to recite long-life mantras on December 22 as much as our personal circumstance permits. In 2008 in the northern hemisphere, December 21 is the shortest day of the year in terms of daylight, and Rinpoche says that the next day, "when daylight and warmth begin to increase again," is a most powerful time for reciting long-life mantras.

He said we may recite the mantras of any of the three long-life deities, who are the same for all the Buddhist lineages—White Tara, Amitayus, and Namgyalma—but that it is sufficient to recite White Tara's mantra. He said she protects us from the eight great fears and from rebirth in the lower realms and that the benefit of practicing her mantra is immense, since she protects us in this and future lifetimes.

His Eminence Garchen Rinpoche is a Drikung Kagyu lama who was known in the 13th century as the Siddha Gar Chodingpa, a heart disciple of Kyobpa Jigten Sumgon, founder of the Drikung Kagyu lineage of Tibetan Buddhism. In ancient India, he had incarnated as Mahasiddha Aryadeva, the lotus-born disciple of the great Nagarjuna. In the 7th century, he was known as Lonpo Gar, the minister of the Tibetan Dharma King Songsten Gampo.

Rinpoche was imprisoned for 20 years during the political turmoil of China's Cultural Revolution Enduring hardship and practicing secretly, Garchen Rinpoche attained realization of the lama's wisdom mind. Garchen Rinpoche is known for his vast realization, as well as for his great kindness.

Rinpoche is one of the greatest masters whom I respect, and whom I have the fortune of receiving his teachings a few times before when he visited Singapore. He is always holding his signature prayer wheels. Even when he is giving teachings or meditating, or praying, he is always turning the prayer wheels. And Rinpoche is a very jovial and kind master who is always laughing and is very warm to everyone. Rinpoche will be arriving in Singapore next April for teachings.

Please say your prayers on 22 Dec as it is also the Winter Solstice (in chinese it is "dong zhi"), where in Chinese customs, it is a day for thanksgiving to the gods, and protectors for taking care of you for this past year. In Chinese beliefs, it is also the day marking the start of the coming new year (although the Chinese Lunar New Year is officially on 26 Jan 2009), it is believed each of us has grown a year older after 22 Dec, and it signifies the year of the Ox has already arrived, technically speaking.

Her gifts

These are some of the paintings and artwork done by my artistic niece when she was younger - she is so full of sunshine and sweet little girl. She is always drawing this and that, without us prompting. She can draw using crayons, colour pencils, markers, pencils, water colours, or made from cutting materials and pasting all over the place.

Starting from clockwise - she painted powerpuff girl for me with lots of love love love...., a CNY painting (she decided to just colour the vase and mandarin orange), my birthday card with her usual loves (flowers, hearts, butterflies, stars), a colourful christmas with colourful snow with snowy mountains and snowman together with a coconut tree?, and finally.... a birthday cake for me painted with crayons and cut-out.
I have kept some of her drawings over the years, just for memories, a reminder of her "gifts" for me. As we know..... these are gifts which "money also cannot buy".

Thursday, 18 December 2008

Kim Lee Carrot Cake


Today I had my favourite fried carrot cake of all times. This stall is in Sims Drive market, called Kim Lee Carrot Cake. Their carrot cake is made of radish, which are chopped into small pieces and are very soft. Fried with chye poh and generous dose of garlic and egg, makes this local dish very delectable. Black sweet sauce is added so that the carrot cake turns darker and slightly sweeter. I have been eating carrot cake from this stall for many years whenever my craving kicks in. I usually have this for Sunday breakfast once in a while.

“If music be the food of love, play on; give me excess of it, that, surfeiting, the appetite may sicken and so die.” - William Shakespeare

Wednesday, 17 December 2008

The touch


He did not claim to be, one never thought he was, perfect or infallible, my father had written at the time, "but in his company I felt the freshness of immense personal purity. There are a lot of people who don't believe in anything, but they will die just to see the Dalai Lama. It's almost like they feel if he touches them, if they get his blessing, they're set up for life".

( The Open Road, by Pico Iyer )

As He is heading away from the public space, suddenly, he sees something and veers off. The rest of us struggle to keep up. Alone at the far end of an empty colonnade, two Japanese women are standing above a girl of ten or so with a mop of black hair and thick glasses; her legs, in bright, striped socks, barely reach the ground from the wheelchair in which she is sitting.

Within seconds, the Dalai Lama is by the girl's side and leaning down to talk to her.

"What is her problem?" he asks the women. The mother told that her eyes are fine, but that the use of her legs is gone.

For a long, long moment he looks into the little girl's eyes. Then he leans forward and places his head against her cheeks. Then, looking at her again, he says something else and tweaks her affectionately, before heading back toward his schedule.

The mother of the girl, as he turns around, is dabbing at her cheeks with a tissue, saying, "Thank you. I'm so sorry. Thank you." The woman beside her looks as if her face is about to crumple. The little girl is swinging her legs back and forth as if the day is just beginning.

Monday, 15 December 2008

Let live

You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”


- David Harkins

Sunday, 14 December 2008

Last photo


I recently found and scanned so many old photos and there is so much to recall of those childhood days.

This photo was taken when I was about 2 or 3 years old in one of my aunt's (father's sister) house. And I realised this was the only and last photo I took together with my parents as well as my paternal grandparents as a family, while my grandpa was still alive. I was the kid on the left carried by my Father with my Mom standing behind. The elderly couple sitted were my grandparents.

I remember my paternal Grandmother was not exactly a very friendly person compared to my maternal Grandma. And as my Mom's mother-in-law, she was much feared by my Mom as she was strict. My Grandmother was a young missy from a rich family before she married, so she was used to being served by maids. I guess she expected that from her daughters-in-law as well, while she doted more on her sons and daughters.

Although I only knew my Grandpa for about 6 years before he passed away, I was so much closer to him than my Grandmother, because Grandpa loved me alot and he took care of me. My Grandmother passed away when I was 16. However compared to the rest of her other grandchildren, I think I spent the most time with her when she was alive, because she was staying at my house almost all the time.

I remember my Grandmother would sometimes asked me to go to the provision shop to buy snacks for her, as her legs were weak. I normally grudgingly agreed or ignored her. I think this was my reaction to her not-so-nice treatment of my Mom. There was once when I was in primary 6 she asked me to buy biscuits for her and I refused. She slowly made her way downstairs herself. Then I began to feel a little guilty and got worried about her, so I secretively followed her from behind and watched her, and made sure she did not fall. When she saw me, she bought tit bits for me as well.

During her last few years, Grandmother had problem walking and became senile. We had a maid to look after her. Once, my Mom was bathing her and although she was in her senile state, she suddenly turned and grabbed my Mom's hand tightly and said in Hokkien "你...好, 你...好" ("you... good, you... good ). My Mom was a little taken aback but it was my Grandmother's way of saying thanks to her all these years. After that my Grandmother became bedridden and had to be monitored in the hospital. During her last few weeks, I would visit her every other day or once a week. In her subconscious state, she kept muttering my name throughout. I was having my preliminary O Levels examinations when she passed away, I did not get to see her in her final moments.

I guess in life, sometimes, no matter how much we dislike someone, or could not get along with someone, but if we spent so much time together, a kind of rapport or love or respect would still developed. And this is what I call
亲情 heartwarming family love.

In retrospect....


Hmm, I think I am getting way too fascinated with clouds. Whenever I see unusual formation of clouds I will snap away. And I like those taken before rainfall, because they look so melancholic.

And melancholic pixs and weather made me think in retrospect.

Throughout our lives, we do encounter ups and downs along the way. Some had it bad, some had it not so bad, while others enjoy a smooth ride all the way. For me, I would term this year as a year of change and also the worst year of my life. Counting my blessings, it was not a life threatening year but this year was the year I met a handful of people who have changed my past positive "innocent" outlook in life .... somehow, somewhat.

Someone was right, this year would be a bad year for me. I had predicted the same for me too (but... aaaarrggghhh why must it be so accurate?). As I mentioned before, I encountered a few undesirable characters whom I do not wish to elaborate, but I guess it is through these "enemies" or "小人" we meet in life who helped me grow wiser. There are also some whom I doted dearly and missed, who came into our lives and left. I still have the support of family and close friends who still care about me.

Anyway I am glad this year is ending soon and I hope this year will remain as the worst year of my life, and better years are ahead for me.

团圆汤圆

Had a lazy Saturday with the family. We went out for lunch then came home to laze some more. I did my personal expenses, and went downstairs nearby AXS machine to pay my bills. Then bought a few packs of frozen 汤圆 Tang Yuan (rice ball dumplings) from the supermarket.

Mom cooked laksa for dinner (too hungry to take pixs of her laksa though....). So I thought I could make some dessert. Tang Yuan was the easiest choice. I cut some ginger into slices, and with pandan leaves, put them into a pot of boiling water. Then I added gula melaka, rock sugar for taste. The concoction from the ginger, pandan leaves and gula melaka smelled so nice, turning the base into a brownish colour. Then the frozen rice balls (which was filled with chopped peanuts) were added into the boiling pot. Within 5 - 10 minutes, the sweet dessert was ready. We even had additional peanut powder so that we can dip the Tang Yuan into the peanut powder. Quite satisfying. But we were quite full from the lemak laksa and curry puffs and tang yuan. :)'

汤圆, 汤圆, 团圆, 团圆 (In chinese, tang yuan sounds like tuan yuan, means "reunion". So it is a must-have during Lantern Festival and Chinese New Year as well as Dong Zhi Festival (Winter Solstice).

BTW this is my 888th post!

Rite of passage

My niece finally had her ears pierced today. As she is growing up fast, this was one of the to-dos for little girls, I guess. We brought her to a jewellery shop to have it done. First she chose the ear rings (a pair of silver ear studs with crystal). Then the lady positioned the hole with a pen, and let us see if it was balanced on both sides. Then she applied the sterilising lotion onto the ears. Next she took out the "gun" and before we knew it, she just "shoot". Niece was not frightened, maybe just a little. I think the anticipation before that was worse than the actual. In a split second, it was done. And she barely felt any pain at all. Soon she was as happy as a lark, she is looking forward to wearing ear studs with heart shapes, shiny crystals, flowers etc... all the girly stuff. To me, it was some sort like a rite of passage, another stage of her little life, another stage of growing up.

Friday, 12 December 2008

Granny's house

This was my Grandma's house in Hougang. This was the house where my Mom and all her siblings lived in for most of their adult lives till they got married. The house has been demolished many years back when my Grandma moved to a HDB flat. This house has many childhood memories for me and my sis.

When sis was born, she was looked after by my maternal Granny while I was looked after by my paternal grandparents. My sis stayed in this house for the first 5 - 6 years of her life and only went home during the weekends. I on the other hand, stayed in my Ah Gong's shophouse in Cecil St for the first 5 - 6 years of my life till we moved to a HDB flat when I was in final year kindergarten (the K2 of today).

We spent most of our school holidays during primary school in Grandma's big house, which we would keep our Grandma and Great Grandma company during the day time. And at night, all my uncles and aunties would be home after work and we had had dinner together. There were 6 bedrooms in the house, the living room and a long porch. There is another inner living room after the grand hall and the kitchen was huge with even a well inside the kitchen. Next to the house was another hut where there were 2 rooms. We called this hut the "Office" because that was where my Grandpa's office was (he was a businessman), and also my eldest uncle's office after that.

And there was plenty of open space outside the house with a big garden. In front of the house, overlooking the fence was a big field with swings. We used to play around the house or outside or at the field. Sometimes when it rained, there would be puddles under the swings, and we would catch tadpoles. At night when we sleep, there was always the sound of crickets. It was at this house that I first learned how to ride a bicycle, with the guide of the long fence. When I had learnt how to cycle, I would sneaked out of the house without my Grandma knowing, and cycled throughout the whole neighbourhood and another neighbourhood which.... come to think of it now, it was quite dangerous, as I cycled along the main road as well. I was about 8 or 9 years old. I enjoyed exploring places by myself and the "freedom" then. My sis would follow my Grandma to the market each morning. It was a mobile market, a hawker by the name of Ah Chwee was peddling vegetables and meat and fish in his little van, and all the aunties would buy their daily stock from him.

Sometimes we played "house" at the long porch and shifted the chairs and tables around, to the dismay of my 4th aunty. I also remember watching cartoon in the evenings like Tom & Jerry, Popeye and soppy taiwanese drama (think there was a drama starring the then very popular 谢玲玲) and also other shows starring 林青霞 and 秦汉). We also secretly dished out my aunt's cassette player and played her idols' songs like 你侬我侬 by 林竹君. Sometimes, I would switch channels to watch Hindi movies, some of which the storyline fascinated me. I remembered I received a big scolding from 4th aunt again (till today, I am still not sure why she made such a big fuss over Hindi movies). -_-"

We also played with the 3 big german shepherds; Mooch, Lucky and Daisy. They also have their own huge dog house at the back of the house, although they were elsewhere outside the house most of the time. They were such tame big giants to me then. There was once we found a lost new born puppy in the neighbourhood and we brought it home to Grandma's house. He was so adorable that I immediately named him Pappy. But we did not know how to take care of the puppy, gave him milk and cake to eat! Pappy vomitted but otherwise he was ok. My aunt called SPCA or something to come fetch him. Eventhough Pappy was with us for only one day, when the people brought him away, I cried and cried so badly. That was the only time I ever "owned" a dog, and it was for only one day.

Oh God, we had such fond and sweet memories of this house.

Kacang Putih


I remember in the older days whenever we go to the cinema, there is always the kacang putih man lurking somewhere nearby selling his roasted peanuts on a bicycle. He is usually an Indian man wearing a turban. There are a few common peanuts (or kacang) we have in those days, and different types of nuts are placed in big tins or containers. We will choose the type we want, and the kacang putih man will wrap the nuts in a conical shape paper (usually they are recycled from newspapers or used magazines).

My favourite kacang is the sugar coated nuts that turned out white which are not too sweet but fragrant. We used to buy a few types in different cones before we enter the cinema to munch. Those days, there were no combo popcorn or hot dog or potato chips. We only have nuts. Whenever we eat these few types of peanuts, we would recall those days of the kacang putih man peddling his kacang with nostalgia and sweet memories. Somehow, the nuts then tasted nicer....

Thursday, 11 December 2008

Mother & Child

Recently while packing, I chanced upon these drawings again.

Many years ago during a book fair, I chanced upon a set of drawings in post card size and with accompanying poems, by Chinese artist Li Zi Jian 李自健. The series "Mother And Daughter" is one of the oil paintings which mainly represents many other art works by Li Zi Jian. He used his wife Dan Hui 丹慧 and daughter as some source materials of his paintings. His art works center around the theme of humanity, he strongly expressed the light and eternity with humanity and a mother's love. His wife Dan Hui wrote a poem for each of his paintings for this series. Dan Hui is a well known poet in her own right.

I am not sure why these drawings captivated me, that I have kept them all these years. Perhaps it was the beautiful lady in the series, in her moments carrying a child and in her moments with child. Perhaps it is the vivid and life-like painting that captures the beauty of the mother, the beauty of birth, the beauty of the innocent child and the beauty of the connection between mother and child. Perhaps it is the combination of poetry and painting that makes the art works more appealing and brings out its special characteristics. I like the painting of the mother breastfeeding her baby best, and this poem 生之梦.

Glad I found this, one of my childhood memories/treasures.

Kopi at KLP

One day I had to do a little some grocery shopping. So I brought niece and nephew to the newly renovated Kallang Leisure Park, or "KLP" to the kids. This is one place which I would recommend if you do not like crowds. I think only the folks living nearby, like those in Tanjong Rhu condos or Old Airport Road area, would walk across the bridge near the Indoor Stadium to do their shopping or hang out there. And there are plenty of car park lots. There is a cinema, an indoor ice skating ring, as well as bowling. There are a few restaurants as well as a foodcourt on the 2nd floor (BTW, the hokkien prawn mee in foodcourt is nice) and there is Cold Storage at the basement. Besides all the other smaller shops, British India just opened, there is also a mini Korean supermart which sells all the Korean food stuff and stationery.

We had a drink at Wang Jiao, the coffee joint selling kopi and kaya toast and local food. I had my Kopi-C while the kids tried the ice cream toast. Actually anything with ice cream, they will love it.

Tuesday, 9 December 2008

Their story

My Mom and Father were teenage sweethearts. They dated since secondary school. Both stayed in their kampongs in Hougang area. My Mom stayed in Hougang 6.5th mile, while my Father stayed in Hougang 4th mile. My Mom told me when they decided to get married in their mid 20s, my mom's father (my grandfather) was quite reluctant. He was not sure whether my Father could give my Mom, what they called "a good life".

My mom was the eldest of 11 children, and was already working in civil service. She gave almost all her pay packet to my grandfather every month end, to help support her huge family.

I am not sure what my grandfather's "a good life" means. I guess, as what every father would wish for, he would have wished for his daughter to marry a rich and capable husband so that she would be well provided for in future.

My Mom could have and almost married a Thai Chinese tycoon, if she and my Father had not already met then. Word has it that in a visit to Thailand with her grandmother (my great grandmother) in her early 20s to visit relatives, the elders in Thailand had wanted to match make my Mom to one of the tycoon's eldest son. However my great grandmother diplomatically turned down the request as she knew my Mom was already attached. Instead in a twist of events, my Mom introduced her 3rd sister, to the tycoon's 2nd son. Although they have not met each other, they started off as pen pals, and eventually when they met, they fell in love and they got married after that. Today my 3rd aunt is happily married in Thailand with 3 grown up chidren.

As for my parents, after all these years, I think my Mom has done averagely well, in the sense, she stood by her man for her entire life, helped supported the family and is also our pillar of support through good times and bad times. They are still happily married, in these times where divorces are pretty common. So I would say, they did ok, after all.

From the looks of it....

Talking about babies, these are my parents when they were babies. The photo on the left is my Father and right is my Mom. My Father as a baby looks skinny and has a bewildered look while my Mom as a baby was bubbly with round cheeks with full of hair. I look more like my Mom than Father, especially I inherited her mouth and nose and hair and ears. I think I got my Father's eyes and chin.

From my Father's expression, I think my sis takes after him more, with that look, she got his nose and mouth. And I guess that's where my nephew also takes after my Father too, with that "inverted triangle" shape face.
Hiak hiak hiak....

Sunday, 7 December 2008

Boy oh boy


I think this baby was one of my father's cousin, taken in the 1940s or 1950s. I just love the look of this baby boy, because he looks "so boy". Look at his thick dark and bushy mane of hair and the pair of big innocent eyes and cute small mouth that is not too pouty. I hope I will have a son who looks like him next time. I am sure my future son will have lots of hair too. Haha!

Cecil Street in the old days

I found these 3 precious photos from my family's stacks of old albums and quickly scanned them. This is Cecil Street in the 1960s and 1970s. I used to live in one of these shophouses (photo at top left) when I was born. It was also facing the Market Street Carpark (photo at top right) where Lau Pa Sat (bottom right photo I found from the internet) is. And that was my Father (bottom left) as a young man at the 2nd floor of the shop house, looking down at the street below at the junction of Cecil St and Church St and Market St. Both Market Street Carpark and Lau Pa Sat are still around today. My shophouse was torn down and made way for the Prudential Tower of today.

I remember once, my Grandpa brought me and my cousin to play at the then newly built carpark, when I was probably about 4-5 years old. My cousin fell on the concrete floor, and he cried and cried with blood oozing out of his knee cap. I was so scared then as my Grandpa hurried him back home.

My Grandpa also used to bring me to Telok Ayer Market or more popularly known now as Lau Pa Sat ("old market"). We used to eat there often. Then the food was very nice too, I recalled we had some Indian dish.

What's your spirit animal?

Took this quiz and the answer is ....... I am a WOLF!

"Your personality is the wolf! You are dark and mysterious, quiet, and a protective friend or partner. You're very intelligent and always put your friends and family first. You like to be alone but you still like to be part of the group. You wander by yourself and think a lot. You're active and have a full imagination and open mind. You go for a full on frontal attack and don't let anyone stand in your way".

Sort of true, hehe.

Saturday, 6 December 2008

Forest Walk, Hort Park


Today early in the morning I got up at 7am! I had the chance to explore Hort Park again, in broad day light this time. It was a cool morning, so the walk was just refreshing. We only managed to complete the Forest Walk, took about an hour and a half to and fro. I snapped many interesting plants and flowers along the way. The man made elevated meandering bridge made of steel was impressive and sturdy enough to last a few generations.

The park itself in Hyderabad Road was a nice spot too, where we had our picnic and break. I still love the flora and fauna and the forest trek. The next time, we would try the Henderson Wave and take the Flora Walk and more. The entire stretch of The Southern Ridges is a 9-kilometre of greenery spanning the rolling hills of Mount Faber Park, Telok Blangah Hill Park and Kent Ridge Park to West Coast Park.

After the walk, we proceeded to a club for a swim, sauna, jacuzzi, R&R to refresh ourselves.
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